Pancreatic Cancer

"Pancreatic cancer is a malignant neoplasm of the pancreas. Depending on the extent of the cancer at the time of diagnosis, the prognosis is generally regarded as poor; less than 5 percent of those diagnosed are still alive five years after diagnosis."

A silent killer. The same cancer killing my mother.

She was diagnosed last week in India. After almost 6 months of suffering with Pancreatitis, we now know what's going to happen. Indian doctors, reputed to be among the best in the world, say they can't operate and recommended Germany instead. A journey and surgery that could cost over 6 million rupees. A surgery that juggles only a 30% chance of success, followed by months of pain management, life altering diabetes and a life expectancy of possibly just 5 extra years.

A surgery we have decided to undergo as a family.

Life as we know it now, has changed. A finite time that could be either spent in despair and depression coupled with anger and sadness OR in precious moments of bonding, happiness and love.

If any other choice is made for us, God forbid, over in Germany, then thats a possibility we must be open to and not deny it's existence.

Either way, inner strength, will power and an unimaginable belief that all this is happening for a reason must fill our hearts and minds now. It's not going to be an easy journey and this story doesn't have a happy ending but only a chance for closeness and eventually we pray, closure.

I will try to be the person I need to be...