Faith

Faith - is the confident belief in the truth of or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing without proof.

My faith has certainly been tested over the last month. While my mother now lies in a hospital bed in India awaiting more tests and possibly surgery, I can't help but think back through the last month filled with sleepless nights awakened by unimaginable pain, frustrated suffering with no light at the end of the tunnel. What my mom has gone through has definitely shaken my resolve, and to some degree, my faith.

As the bills racked up, and our frustration and anger grew, we realised SL wasn't going to give us any solution or at least some clue as to what was causing all this recurring pain. So the decision to fly my mom out to India, to a specialist, was made and last monday she was wheeled off to the airport by an Apollo ambulance. As we watched her lying on the ambulance bed and my dad sitting next to her, our frustration turned to hope, hope that she would at least now get a proper diagnosis and treatment.

A day later we get the news that she has multiple stones in her gall bladder, which was causing the recurring pain and the Pancreatitis. The news brings mixed emotions, those of resolution of a definite fixable issue and those of concern of my mom undergoing surgery. I know it's not a hugely complicated surgery and it gets done within 2 hours, but I also know my mom. She'll be frightened and nervous, and I'm so glad that my dads' right there with her holding her hand. All credit must go to him, for getting her through this ordeal. He's seen her at her worst, suffering and crying through the endless night and forgone meals and sleep while trying to balance his work and doctors and nurses alike. I hope that someday I can be as strong as he is. Although I know he must be really torn up inside to see her like this, but he won't say much about it, which in a way I am much like him.

This next week or so will be a trying week. If surgery is the option, it might happen over this weekend which means more days to recover. We're all praying that they come back home soon, healthy and as back to normal as can be. They are in Gods hands. We believe, we hope, we pray.

That is our faith.