Noun 1. lone wolf - a person who avoids the company or assistance of others, a loner.
The above definition would seem to describe me lately. I must say though this is only in regard to my working life. Ever since i started i haven't felt any connection with the company or anyone in it, and that has led me to believe that i could have made a mistake in leaving my previous job with all my close friends, friends i could be myself with and actually get me. I miss them a lot. I don't laugh anymore over here. Everything is isolated, i'm isolated by my own doing, and grouped into clicks of recognition and friendship. I have yet to find a friend that i can just be myself with and relax. I guess it's also the environment as its very open and noise travels too easily for any sudden crazy outbursts, which i'm so prone and used to.
It's been 3 months now and work wise I've had my share of frustrations. I don't like my current project but prefer and even wait for any distraction by work from another project, it's that bad. It doesn't help that the work that i have to do right now is new and more along the lines of a coder, which just adds to the stress and frustration.
When will it start to ease up? I don't know. What I do know is that come 5pm i'm itching with anticipation for time to speed up so i can rush out of here like a bat out of hell. The mornings aren't any better as with my eyes open, lying in bed the realisation that its back to work again just sucks.
I'm waiting for the day when i'd look forward to work again, as i used to. Keep you posted...
3 human(s) commented:
oh no... trust me, I know exactly how it feels.... there's no satisfaction in terms of work of just people company...
I'm thankful that DQ is around. or else I would've had a worst time!
Atleast if work was satisfying and making me develop myself and actually learn more, I'd have stopped complaining to some extent.. but all around it's some kind of misery..
oh well, lets hope it changes at some point....
tried talking to the big guys about the work/project related thing?
Tc and lets hope things get better for all of us..
hugs!
One thing's for sure... you are certainly not a lone wolf in your sentiment. I hate where I am too!!!!
Argh. WHY did we leave? This just goes to prove that money does NOT make you happy.
Sigh. Big hug.
Hey thanks LD and DQ. Someone once said its strength in numbers... Well lets just hope that come 2009 things will change for the better. Even if it means something in our life has to change in order for happiness to slink back in.
Hugs back!!
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