Familiar Nostalgia

Nostalgia : a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time.

Been reliving old memories lately, probably due to the fact that christmas is around the corner. Went back home for a few days since my dad's gone abroad and mom's all alone. Kind of nice to come home to everything familiar. To see places I grew up with. Walk down roads that are so familiar I've walked down them many times, with so many thoughts in my head, at all hours of the day and night, by myself.

Waking up early to head out to work, standing at my old bus stand and waiting for my slow yet empty bus to chug along, and to get the familiar window seat on the left side, while the familiar bus conductor gives me my ticket... Cool.

Then passing by the buildings and landmarks and bus stops I'd passed so many times ago to finally reach my destination, I start to recollect what other things were happening in my life as well. How the blossoming novelty of having an amazing girlfriend sent butterflies scampering crazily in my stomach and an almost permanent smile took shape on my lips.

With all lifes ups and downs, you realise something really important. Its not about how much money you need to make, or what car you drive, or how you're going to pay the bills for all those material things you've bought over the years, its not about any of that. Its about family. Family and loved ones, who are there for you no matter what. Who have shared with you much more in this lifetime than anyone will. And its a nice feeling to have people, someone, who loves you unconditionally.

Maybe thats whats been missing and why I haven't had the christmas spirit for sometime. I don't know what the new year or what life will bring, but I know no matter how bad my luck is, I know... I'm pretty damn lucky.